Monthly Archives: January 2011

wanting to binge

I just failed a test this morning (over something incredibly stupid and should not have been focused on but what ever) and I have the biggest urge to binge. It might also be the PMS taking over, perhaps a little stress and a little lack of sleep, but what ever the reasons, I just want to self medicate and soothe with greasy food. The cycle of thinking starts with wanting to feel better which triggers memories of food that gave me that high, the subtle excitement and enjoyment from eating it. Once a thought of a particular food has been focused in on, a plan to acquire desired indulgence starts to form and usually carried out.
It wasn’t until last year that I started to recognize the patterns and it’s taken try after try to reason and talk myself out of them. Now, more often than not, I do succeed and go for healthy.

Today, I wanted a bacon cheesre burger, fries, a fancy high sugar coffee drink and a treat to top it off. I was able to recognize the feelings and thoughts, the triggers, and turn it around into healthy options. Instead of all that other junk I got this

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A favourite tea and a munchie protein platter. Sure, it’s not perfect but my success is in the process of changing my mind and going for a healthier option.


what are you eating? – pizza

A delish, quick dinner to put together last minute and a personal favourite. I pre-made a batch of mini pizza crusts from scratch to keep in the freezer. Add what ever fresh toppings I can find in the fridge, bake in the toaster oven/ or regular oven for 5-7 minutes and presto…. I call it dinner. Tonight I have chicken breast, mushrooms, broccoli, hot peppers and a very light sprinkle of fresh grated parmesan.4 points per pizza: Crust – 1pnt, chicken (1/2 chicken breast) – 2 pnt, 3 tbsp fresh grated romano cheese for flavour – 1pnt

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Blog Watch

Ever wish you could make those chocolate chip cookies and eat them too?

There is a great new blog out there called Recipe Renos. “The lighter side of Healthy Living”.

It’s just starting up but so far I’m loving the idea and the wealth of information provided.  This is definitely one to keep an eye on. Can’t wait to see more. 

Find it here:

What are you eating?

New segment I’m calling

 ” What are you eating?”

Lunch at the office. 1 cup Campbell’s V8 soup – broccoli (2 points), 1/4 cup of habibi’s hummus (3 points) and giant zucchini sticks (o points)

For the calorie counters: 205 cal, 8 protein.

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Jan 22 – Snow Shoeing and the goal wardrobe

Mt Seymour - snow shoeing - Jan 22

This picture is proof that I don’t fall into every river when I go snow shoeing.

Yesterday a few of us WW girls (Vancouver Hiking Girls) went snow shoeing at Mt Seymour. Our second snow shoe adventure. It is so much fun that we’re going to try to get as many more snow shoe/winter activities in before the season is over.

My boyfriend came with me while the rest of the girls got a head start. We ended up jogging the trails in our snow shoes which was one of the best work outs I’ve had in a long time. We were having so much fun trekking up the mountain side and exploring.  You would think that snow shoeing is just too cold but NO, it’s actually frustratingly hot once you starting hiking up those mountains. No winter jacket needed, even wearing a hoody can get too hot. The trick is to skip the heavy winter coat, wear a few layers (light tank, 1 heavy long sleeve T-shirt, 1 hoody/sweatshirt/sweater), and  keep moving (and don’t fall into rivers)

One of my inspirations to get out of the 180’s is a collection of new wardrobe items that I started around christmas time. I am currently a size 12-14 (depending on the store) in 10-15lbs I should be a 10/11.  I found a few gorgeous items on sale at the outlet mall just after christmas to start a “Goal Wardrobe”. Most people have a goal outfit but this stuff should fit until I reach my ultimate goal.  The snow pants in the above picture BARELY fit me the day I bought them and now feel loose around the waist and hip area so I know the inches are going but the weight is still holding on.

Since all of my currently “skinny” cloths are now feeling baggy, I can look forward to fitting into my new wardrobe soon.

Everything is 1-3 sizes smaller and I can not wait to wear that dress.

For the rest of the week I am focusing on the leanest of the lean proteins that I can find, chick peas and other beans, tuna, chicken breast and staying away from unnecessary fat and calories like bacon and sausages, cheese. Looking for those high fiber, high protein, low fat, light carbs (or healthy carbs like apples)

cha cha cha changes…..

It’s 7 am on a sunday morning and I am about to head out to the street for a 10km run. I feel hyper with excitment, a renewed hope and confidence in myself to accomplish anything and everything I want. This self assurance didn’t come easily. I started last week in a tough place and took a few days to think about why I’m feeling STUCK. I mean, for the most part, I am happily living a pretty great life , yet still had this nagging feeling like something was missing. I came to a conclusion after 1 day of good ol’ soul searching…..I hate my job. Correction, I love parts of my job and really hate the rest.  I love the company, the people, working in the event industry, doing the design and layout projects but the rest I am just sick of doing day in and day out, I’m sick of sitting at a desk and staring at a computer for 8 hours.   After a long and difficult discussion with my boss I realized that there is nowhere to take this particular position. It is what it is and always will be and can’t expect it to be much more.  That is not good enough for me. Do I really want to be sitting in the same place in life 10 years from now?… NO.. absolutely not. I want to move forward, to be challenged, to enjoy ALL life has to offer including my career.

So.. my exciting announcement: I’m going back to school for Interior Design.  WOOHOO. The program starts as part-time studies until I can get into the diploma program. I will continue working full-time while taking evening classes for 2 years, and still train to run a half marathon. It’s true. I am super woman. 🙂 not really but I love that feeling.

I’m gearing up, making plans, saving the monies, picking my course schedule and enrolling.

Due to the extremely emotional and difficult week leading up to decision making, I resorted to food to help me feel better. I felt crazy like a drug addict searching for a perfect fix. I could remember the sugar rush after too many treats, the caffeine high, the chemicals in my brain reacting and giving me that feel-good feeling. I resisted, rationalized, avoided, ran it off, drank more tea and water… but, one day I just couldn’t get it out of my mind so I conveniently went to the nearest coffee shop to get “tea”, picked the biggest most sugary and calorie packed treat in the pastry shelf, scarfed it down, felt the rush and immediately felt gross and disappointed. And then I did it again. I did it 3 days in a row.  Even though my new skinny toni brain knows it’s not worth it , I didn’t care. I just wanted it.  After feeling crappy for 3 days I decided that that was enough, had a good stern talk with myself and set up my plan for the rest of the week.

Even though I had a mini re-lapse there is still a positive side. I KNEW what I was doing. I carefully chose each treat, I also had 1 at  time instead of 3 or 4 or 5, I recognized my feelings before, during and afterward. I thought through the process. I still gave in but in a very calculated way.  I also did not let it last. I put all the different pieces together and was able to get out quickly.

It’s all part of the learning process and I am totally, completely on track this week and moving forward, excited about progress and ready to do the work… the really hard work.

Half marathon train etc.

Until 1 week ago, I had no desire or dream to ever run a half marathon. Even though I love running it just seemed….rediculous.  I mean, I’m not a racer, I don’t care about speed, nor do I care much about running with groups of other people, and I don’t want it to take up ALL of my free time. I really simply did not see much reason to try.  Up to now, 10km was enough of a challenge to work up to. But, one day last week I realized that I need a new challenge, some seemingly impossible goal to work towards. After talking to a new friend who is a very similar weight, height, body type, and similar weight loss goal and also loves to run as much or even more than I do, I was inspired to try for the half marathon.

I am usually the “runner” in any group. I hadn’t met anyone with the same drive and dedication to try to do more and more, to continue pushing further when it feels too hard, to run rain or shine no matter what,  until I met Bridget.  I had always compared myself to others who are just starting out, maybe don’t run as much or have the desire to do much more than a stint around a few blocks, or they just flake and stop trying. After a very brief chit chat with Bridget over messages and texts, I realized that I had never met anyone who was better than me (at running). She is already training to run 5 half marathons THIS YEAR and did 2 or 3 last year.  All of a sudden I felt silly for thinking a half marathon is unrealistic for someone like me.  Here is someone who is statistically just like me but already doing way more than I could imagine. So.. I want to try to do it too.

Now that I’ve found my new goal, I have to come up with a game plan.  For now, I am going to do 10km on saturday and sunday mornings for the rest of the month. 3 more weekends in Jan. This will help me get used to running a full 10km and what that feels like.  Officially start with this training schedule on Jan 31st.

You can meet Bridget over on her blog here:

Any helpful feedback or tips are welcome.

Saturday morning run.

Happy Saturday. This morning I had a jogging date with the WW girls along the Vancouver seawall. We did 5 km from science world to english bay and then I had to leave quickly for an appointment while the rest of the girls did the return 5km. I also added a few km by jogging 2 km to the skytrain and and back home. 9 km total today.

Also stayed perfectly in my points. Sounds like a gold star day to me. 🙂 and here’s a progress picture from this morning. 185lbs
















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More 2010 WW Adventures and… WI.

WI Results:    -5lbs

Now before we go all crazy with WOW’s and OMgosh’s,  I am not the least bit surprized by this. First of all, I had major water retention left over from a very indulgent christmas MONTH. My meals had very little structure and contained a lot of crackers, fancy cheeses, chocolates, candy, dinning out and portions that could feed a small village. Secondly, I had the flu for 2 days, Friday through to Sunday.  The part I AM proud of is that when I was finally over being sick, I decided to kick off the new year by running 5km minimum every night from Monday to Thursday.   And I did.  Not only did I challenge myself fitnesswise, but also in meals and snacks. I made every meal at home from scratch and traded in all of my candy snacks with fresh fruit. 10 days sober from all candy, coffee and alcohol and I’m feeling GREAT.

All of this brings me to 185lbs. I’m very happy to be at this weight but I still have 5 more pounds to lose this month and a feeling it will be much MUCH more difficult to achieve than it was last week. 

My goals this week:
Weight: -2lbs

Jogging: 35km Total: 10km jogs x 2, 5km jogs x 3  

Meals: Plan and prepare ALL meals and snacks. Have ZERO incidents where hunger takes over and I rampage the store for a “snack” and end up using way too many points. No more eating on the run or letting myself get to that point that feels like hunger is an emergency.  

Here are a few more pictures of the Vancouver Hiking Girls having fun on our dates. Some from our Snow Shoeing adventure in December in Mt. Seymour. And YES… Me and Linsday fell into a creek and almost died. Well.. it wasn’t really that bad but it was EFFING cold. (*sorry krystal. I don’t have a pic of you from that day) 

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Chili con turkey and a ton of veggies.

I made this turkey chili on sunday in anticipation of a busy week and it was AMAZING. I took a basic chili recipe, used ground turkey (*grain fed organic, special ordered from my local butcher shop) and added all of my favourite veggies. It’s so hearty that 1 cup is enough.

Here we are at the end of the first week of 2011.

I went for my first jog of the new year on monday night and managed to pull off 7km. Not bad after a few weeks of holidays (ahem: Slacking) and the flu. It’s a great starting point for the year and to start training for a half marathon. It’s amazing when I look back to when I started last March. I could barely run 4 blocks but that quickly became 2 km until I pushed to reach 5 and eventual suprized myself with a 10km.

So, it’s Thursday and by now I usually have a weekend full of dinners and drinks lined up but all of that is changing. I’ve always looked forward to my extra long saturday morning jogs but this weekend’s will be a bit different. I’ve always gone solo but this weekend I decided to invite the WW girls to join for added inspiration and maintain some kind of social life while I decline anything that involves restaurants or bars.

This week I just jumped right back into planning and prepping all meals, tracking every bite, and running every night since monday. 23 km total,
Goal for next week: 35km: two 10 km, three 5km

I’ve also added a little challenge: 50 crunches every morning. I’m only on day 2 so there’s nothing to speak of.

WI is tomorrow so wish me luck. 🙂

Ps: thank you silent readers for the kind and supportive notes, comments and emails this week. There are a couple questions I will address soon.

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